YoU gIvE coL0urS t0 my l!fE & 'mAkE iT bLack n whiTe again..

2006-10-06T15:45:00.000+08:00

was walking to sch.
filled with hope
pray hard dat i'm being paranoid

but obviously
it's nt

why do ppl change so fast
i admit..
my thinking..
my thought..
i'm too immature
i haven grown at all

i dunno how to say
i dunno WAD to say
it's happening YET i dunno

how and where can i take an eq test?

2006-10-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

haha
guess all pisces share the same characteristic somehow ba?
someone's obviously too outdated?
nvm
wun blame anyone
=)
smilez..
gen wo yi yang =P

hmm.. shld i say
unfairness makes the world go round?
fine..
i shaldnt elaborate
ppl from MY class shld know

jj will be the last choice of jc i'll choose
if i cant enter
den poly is my choice
since it's always been mine
(but i dunno which subj to take
dat's the prob now)
if i cant enter first 3 mths.
hey.. with my working exp
i can get a job more or less easily rite?
be another book promoter =P

i can foresee
yea
ke's getting an 8 and me a 10 or less
for o lvl
if i foresee.. means
haha.. LIKELY to come true!
i'm gg to work hard for dat 10 pts
or even lesser
prelim doesnt matter NOW..

who cares anyway.. bleh
it doesnt determined ur o lvl results in the end
=)

den my bro
shld i relieve or sigh?
someone who knows there's this BIG exam BUT
dunno the time and the paper he's taking...
diaoz..
if.. i say IF
if he can read the questions CAREFULLY
he might have gotten twice the marks he shld be getting now
or better
now i cant say he's stupid
cuz he's got potential..
it's juz dat he lack the focus to pay attention
how dumb can he be?
still can laugh at others when he's one of them

ok.. i've did my best as a 'teacher'
as well as a GOOD sister
juz hope dat he does well

tml's maths paper
hope dat he read the questions properly
cuz he can get as high as 80+
and as low as 40+
hey.. READ ok?
and UNDERSTAND WAD THE QUESTIONS ARE ASKING.
ppl with no brain cannot do maths?
he's surely one with brain
everyone has
but he's nt using dat's all
if only he could be like my sis
ya.. F9 and A1.. LOL
den big big exam distinction!

hmm.. speaking abt her..
tml's her last paper
pray hard dat the difficult function questions dun come out tml
if nt dat question is gonna be blamed!

k..
good luck bro - get an A!!!
good luck sis - A1!!
good luck frens
good luck everybody
good luck for ppl who are pia-ing for o lvl

before i doze off tml..
buaiz

2006-10-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

'wth' & 'suck like hell'
has been out from my mouth recently
dunno why
probably cuz of results ba?
it's wth..
i study so much yet
i didnt do well
so it suck like hell..
bleh o.0
wadeva

got back all results today
doubt there'll nt be any further moderation for me liao
bad bad bad
while seeing ppl getting lesser and lesser
i'm still stagnant..... -.-
one good thing
i PASS my english with a C6!!!
thanks for the oral man
if nt i'll fail like nobody's business
guess C6 is one of the lowest in class ba
but a pass is great
(since i got F9 the in term 3)
i want to do even better for O LVL!!
mrs chua will help me, rite?

now only hope dat my humanities is being moderated UP to a C6
gimme one more mark to pass
PLS.. teachers.. u are nt evil ppl.. i know =P

Eng - C6
Humanities - D7 (C6)
E Maths - A1
A Maths - A1
Bio - B4
Phy - B3
Chem - B3
Chinese - A1

L1R5 - 19 (18)

WHERE CAN I GO?
seriously need to buck up english and humanities
yea.. my TARGET 8 pts
miracles happen
I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN! =)

(heex.. 10 pts i very happy liao)

back to my primary 6 english...
buaiz....

2006-10-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

so sian!!!
when i'm running out of time now
i was given another task

and this task will only be 1 % successful
why why why???
i've become a tutor overnight
and teach my bro.. ENGLISH!!!
wth
it's the subject dat suck like hell

as long as he pass his english..
(which is likely impossible..
i'm nt crude or wad
he NEVER PASS any since i dunno how many eons ago)
i'll get him a basketball
yes.. as i promised

3 more days!!! den i'll be so called FREE
free to have my own time for my OWN revision
o lvl is coming
sis is having exam currently
why me?
haiz

now i can predict where he'll be nxt year..
express is IMPOSSIBLE
NA still got chance IF he PASS
NT confirm go if he's still like dat
how on earth could he got 120 for his prelim?
giving him another 100 marks wouldnt even beat hao

i'm now marking his maths revision paper
hope he can really and do well for maths
dat's the only hope for him to pass overall
IF he do well for maths
(which is like.. *roll eye*
he so long nv score liao)

haiz...
ta wei mian tai man kai qiao le ba?
TOO SSSLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWW

2006-09-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

1 day wasted..
bleh
cuz afternoon was doing each subj's checklist for revision
(anybody want pls ask me. tag my board.. email or wadeva)

den after dat aunt called and asked me to go east coast play
so i went lo
go there rain
haiz.
den was playing lao ying zhuo xiao ji
(the eagle and the mother hen.. wadeva u call dat)
den monkey
in the shlter tho
the little kids ar..
really got stamina
so fun playing with them
i LOVE my brother
.. yi en didi and joelle too!!

den the rain stop le
went to built sandcastle
no lo. play sand =P
build a volcano and tried to pour water into the hole
LOL..
HOW COULD I
ACTUALLY FORGOT DAT
WATER CAN SEEP TRU THE SAND!!!
-.-
too stressed le... perhaps?

draw lo
i wrote jay chou's song's lyrics
haha
den my aunt tot i was so romantic
BLEH
how i wish i can write such poem
den i'll be a GREAT composer le

den went to pasir panjang for dinner
the fried prawn noodle there is delicious
(gawd.. anybody.. give me another adjective?)
den ate satay and seafood they ordered
haha
had fun thinking of names for the babies to be born
fish tang? no tang?
wei shen me? LOL
funny names......

siao liao
39 more days left to o lvl
i feel so dead man
i MUZ do well
Mr Low and Ms Ng
i'll go back with good news nxt year!!

k.. off to mug

2006-09-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

=D

juz came back from mid autumn celebration
so fun!!!
although did nothing much
except dat i've learn to make dragonfly!!!
and play with my little bro!!!

actually tot of staying in sch and celebrate de
but thank god i choose to go home
cuz heard mic and ke say..
it's very boring!!
haha... there's no fun from the primary sch kids
all so old
and den cant play candle
LOL..

so i went home and bring my little bro to sch
yay!!
walking to xingnan is so
MEMORABLE...

there's fund raising..
and dat lanturn cost me $2!!!
haha. wth?
anw.. raise fund la..
this is the first time i parted my money so willingly

went to hall and found mr low
was prize giving ceremony
for dunno wad
maybe for lanturn making competition?
so bo liao up there la..
so went down to canteen

den i lit the lanturn for my little bro and walk ard the whole sch
haiz..
dat route
though quiet dark
but made me think of many things..
memory flashback
hah..
dat's the route where we had our 1.6km run
and we have to run three rounds
i rmb getting 16th =P
den he got 4th
he's pro in sports =D

den walk around the sch compound.
the classroom
the library
the AVA room.
LOL..
tho there's a little change here and there..
but i can still recognise the way!!!

den to the bball court
trying to find the older younger brother
haiz..
forget dat..

bleh.. den went to find ms ng
she taught me how to make dragonfly!!!
=D
can i say i'm born talented or wad?=P
she juz taught me once and i got it!!!
den was given the task to help teach other ppl
yay!!!
there's ALOT ppl!
haha..
i made myself two
den was gg to 9.30
and mdm seetah's chasing everybody to go home
anw.. i dun feel like gg hm yet =(
but still have to la..

so while cleaning up.
mrs tan (b-------'s mum) came and offered me with some food so dat she can close stall..
i'm so bloated now

see... get it why i cant forget the days i had..
so wonderful
so meaningful
so memorable
so unforgettable

heh..
i forgot to get the 75th anniversary tee..
ms ng forgot to gimme the children's dat present
shld i join the xingnan alumni? $50 leh.

shall go back to help out in the CO after o lvl
back nxt year with good news
yay!!! woots~!!!
=D

2006-09-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

i know dat previous post wasnt suppose to be written
so i decided to keep it with me..
unless u really want to read
ask me ok???

ok.. so today was quite ok
got back e maths today
i finally see an A1 for my prelim!!!

haiz
all my fren seemed to be improving
why am i nt??
ya la.. i improve
but nt to my standard yet..
so wad if i'm so pro in maths?
when other ppl can be so constant in their results
getting A2 throughout all subject isnt bad afterall

yay.. so wad if i got A1?
dat's only one?
compared to others who are borderline A1 for almost subjects
isnt dat suppose to be GOOD?

be thankful ppl u'r nt me..
if only my maths can balance with other subj
get more A1s
how good willl dat be?

2006-09-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

maths and eng will be given out tml!!!

so eager to know..
and yet so afraid
cuz i dun want bad result..

so after moderation..
phy and chem went up to B3
ok la still alright
and think humans will be pulled up a little to C6

L1R5.. 18.
where can i go?
sk got 12. yvonne got 20..
LOL..
i think i need to sslp at home for the first three mth liao

and and and
haha
so happy..
my bio got B4!!! (after 4 marks added)
LOL.. how can it be possible?
i nv study!!!
i only touch the revision on dat morning of the exam!!!
woots.. i usually failed badly if i nv study
this is a MIRACLE!!

miracle..
nxt will hope for miracle for eng
F9 to C5?
i want to pass
so i can go JC

pls pls pls.. A1 for maths!!!! my only hope for A1 liao!!!! pls pls pls!!! i really need it!!!

=) i love to smile!!!
RED!!!! I LOVE RED!!!
woots

2006-09-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

wo yue kan yue bu shuang......................

pls. dun make me hate u

2006-09-26T21:05:00.000+08:00

i want go on holiday!!!
lol.. why am i thinking of holiday now??

haiz..
why do i weep so much today?
cant help it..
it's nt bcuz my result is bad or wad
ya.
it's BAD.. but it's the BEST result i ever got
49 out of 100 for combine humanities..
how great is dat?
i actually improved by 2 grades!
i improved by 20 marks compared to term 3!
cant help and so down it go
flooding my spec
i'm so dead manx.
i knew dat wasnt my standard yet
i gave up bio for geog.
and this is wad i got
49 ehx? D7
i so bu fu qi!!
now everything is gonna suck
first was phy
when i tot i could get wad was expected of me..
this is a B4
but i improved from D7 (term3, which was nt my stadard at all cuz i nv study)
shld i be smiling?
den was chem
when i tot it could nt be any lower than a B
i got C5
i haven seen my chem getting this sucky result b4..
so down it went yesterday
today was humans.. D7
anw.. i can heal myself very fast
cuz there's a auto-healer in me LOL!

it's bad news for every paper i got so far
nxt will be.. lower than D7?

my eng.. nt pinning vy high hope.
pass is good enough
maths.. now is the only 2 subjects that can save me!!
i cant wait to see my 1s for those..
bio.. is totally screw cuz i went to study geog
think i'll fail!

L1R5
wad shit man
(6)+7+(1)+(1)+1+4
it's 20 if i pass my eng and A1 for maths!
WHERE CAN I GO?

prelim papers is suppose to be easy
i know
but my result is so-

i cant imagine ms ng fainting in front of me
neither can i imagine mr low fainting
lol

anw.. this is nt gg to pull down my mood although it somehow activated my tear glands..
today i was rather -- HIGH?
cuz cuz cuz..
i got BRONZE for SMO!!!!
i dun even get an honourable mention b4
my cert was all
"certificate of participation"
ever since i took part
and dat paul..
who got honourable mention but was absent..
lol.. very funny sia..

in focus.
communicate with Isabella via number codes 12-15-12 19-15 2-15 12-9-1-15
hope i did nt disturb anyone who's studying ba? =P
SORRY if i did...

my hand was so freaking weak dat i cant write at all
cuz laugh too much le..
so long nv laugh till like dat le.
dat shld be me ma
i'm suppose to be mad de ma
LOL

so mic's dad sent me home
trying to sell me away but ended up gg the wrong way
=P
anw.. mic.. u cant earn much by selling me.
cuz i am PRICELESS

yay!!
hope it's good news from tml onwards!
=) keeping smiling

2006-09-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

so scary la..
juz got back phy and chem paper today..

quite disappointed (manx-i hate this word) with my own results
it's juz way TOO low for my expectation le

overall i improve 3 grades for physics
drop 2 grades for chem..
how great is dat?

cant hope for anything higher liao
juz pray dat i'll do well for the other papers

pia electrochem.. bye.

2006-09-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

hah.. of cuz i'll post something today!!!
cuz it's FUN FUN and FUN..
yay!! i went on my first date with laogong!!
=D
LOL..
was suppose to go relieve myself de but in the end dint buy anything!!
haiz.. i brought so much money to spend
but all i bought was my lunch and icecream.

i want heels
i want flare skirt
i want tops..
i want all the clothes I LIKE
and more loopy earrings
shades..
EVERYTHING

so ya.. today's quite short cuz she wants to go home early to study
it'll be bad for me to make her stay..
anw i feel quite bad dat she lied to her dad
Oops..

so we met at je mrt station
waited quite... not dat long la
LOL.. she's too spoilt dat she dunno how to travel via mrt
=P
so i guided the way la..
nvm. cuz she'll be guiding the way for me once we reach
HAHA..
we got NO SENSE of DIRECTION

went to marina square.
there got many many shops
and i'm suppose to be able to buy many many things..
though everything's quite affordable for me today
haiz..
sometime when u think it's nt worth it..
den u'll drop the idea
how fussy am i?

dat GOLD bag from rip curl..
muz i pay for the brand when the brand tag is sooo small?
nice nice.. i'll go down bugis one day to find a similar one without the 'ripcurl' tag
heex
den dat shoe from (where huh?)
quite high
but comfortable and NICE!
$59.90... -.-" wait till i can part with so much of my money..
wait for sales ba ='(
still got more.. dat dress from esprit.. more more more
i'm gg to save up $1000 for shopping
spend it all at a go man!!!
wooots~!!! (how long will dat take? lol)

den den den.....
was at so high mood den...
den den den........
met those (i shaldnt say)
(although my celebration mood was so bloody pulled down)
life seem to be so suay.. for.. them?
cuz everywhere i go.. SHE will see me..
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA...
suay her... NOT ME...
i'll nv get pissed off by HER..
NEVER!!!
(I DUN RESPOND TO pig's grunt anyway...)

den went to suntec
nv walk much la
cuz teresa has to go home..

we talk alot.. haha
gossips? lol.. i seldom do dat.. =P
was fun talking to her.
was fun gg out with her..
cuz she know the way there.. haha..
she can give me some fashion sense..

nvm.. so mrt home lo..
we shall go out again after my o lvl!!!
woots..
i got alot of things to buy..
den by dat time there's alot money to spend liao
cuz i'll be working again for RL immediately after o!!!

hex.. i BOOKed you liao..
u MUZ go shopping with me after my o lvl..
I DUN CARE..
blah
lalalala~~!!

today was so fun!!
let's go out more often!!!
muz train leg muscles so can walk in heels with me!!!
=)

2006-09-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

yeah..
do u call dat a relieve?
jie tuo......

FREEDOM
i like this feeling
when nobody cares..
and nobody can!
cuz it's ME

dun get it why
i'm nt grieving
i feel a load off
so relax
and i'm in fact quite HAPPY
lol. call for a celebration?

thank you
i feel so much better
wo yi ge ren hui bi jiao zi you
hope u're doing well

thank ppl for giving me encouragement
thank you.

i really do.

2006-09-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

shattered into pieces..

if u dun like.. u can dun look at my blog..

i know u hate ME..

2006-09-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

ok.. i juz deleted wad i wrote..

nvm.....
bloody no mood today.
cuz... today's TODAY.
.. so?
it shldnt be concerning me at all

today had the LAST three prelim papers..
and.. haiz.
how could i actually forgot
dat A maths paper is b4 chem.
so i went to the exam hall..
unprepared..
i was trembling
i felt giddy
and why cant they give me a few more seconds to write a 'total = ans'?
i could have gotten one more mark if i got it correct....
1 more mark mean alot to me

i want to top
top the class
top the level
like i used to

why cant i juz be like the pro which i used to be?
the feeling of climbing down the stairs is horrible
maybe my expectation is juz too high?
it's the potential in me since primary sch

k la. now at least i dun really feel bad if i dun do well
cuz i expected it. cuz i nv put in the effort i used to
anyway, 'fail' xi guan liao zi ran dun feel anything le
but dat's nt wad i want for o lvl la.
I'LL CRY! maths.. guarantee my A1.

chem paper 1 sux
ppl will agree with me
paper 2 ok la
aiming for A1 and hope i really get
i know i can
ya.. to my potential..
i know i can even win HIM! LOL
I TRIED B4.. as long as i really put all my heart into it
but dat was so long ago.
why cant i top the class like i used to

today was so giddy..
and i was trembling even after exam
my piano tcher told me dat. LOL
i haven eaten since morning to 5pm..
is dat the reason why??

but i dun feel like eating
i got no appetite at all
something is affecting me now
i'm still thinking..... wad is dat thing?

argh!!

ISABELLA!!! THINK CAREFULLY!!!

dat's the prob with me.
if i were - i'll be crying day and nite
i know the feeling
cuz i know wad's happening nxt...

why am i feeling so depressed? and stressed?

2006-09-20T19:03:00.000+08:00

i
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really
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want
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to
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cry...

today's 20th Sep..

2006-09-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

only those who understand..
will cry.

2006-09-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

once again here.

say.. haiz.. i regret choosing green.
now i really look like 'ghost'
i got frightened by myself so many times..
LOL.
i shld chose my own colour. haiz.
MONSTER..

ok.. juz saw jay chou's bai se feng ce MV in MTV..
first time watching..
was so touching dat i cried watching
this is the 2nd MV i cried.
first was feng.. dat's even more.
it's flashback memories...
so cool.
but so sad.

why are all sad sad songs so nice?

2006-09-19T12:19:00.000+08:00

there there.. see?
i say liao. green is disgusting.
even mic and ke agree with me.
yea. i look like a GHOST liao.
and i agree cuz i was frightened by wad i saw in the mirror yesterday
i dun think i'm gg to smile liao. (until i change)
RED IS STILL BEST!!! woots.

today's a maths paper is damn easy la.
i can say.. it's slightly lower than o lvl standard la.
but dun be too happy yet.
paper 2 is gg to be tough if paper 1 is easy.
anw. fren. dun get too happy dat this is gg to mean dat u've improve or wad.
cuz this paper.. is WAY TOO EASY compare to all the papers i did so far.
(but i'm nt confident to do well - although i'm.. juz not pinning TOO high hopes for my maths)
juz hope dat less marks is deducted from my paper1..
78/80? =P dat's the mark i wish to get.
and hope dat i really get..
haiz.. pls. dun deduct marks due to carelessness.. pls...
btw, i'm maths pro ehx? lol
den i got hope for paper 2 liao.
i need my A1!!!

frens. if u do well, well done..
cuz dat means ur a maths got hope liao.
(i got a feeling dat more ppl are gg to score for this paper)

look for me if need help ya?
i'm always free for MATHS consultation..
sms.. call.. email.. anything. i'll try my best to solve.
i'm nt genius yet..
cuz i cant solve simple question like unit vector ^^
i cant solve sets.

let's analyse wad chap nt tested yet

sets
functions
logarithm and expo f(n)?
coordinate geom?
linear law
P n C
binomial
integration
kinematics

dunno la.. dun read mine. cuz i suffer from memory loss..but all these are most probably coming out for paper 2..

k.. needa study for physics.. i need another A1!! sayonara!

2006-09-18T18:58:00.000+08:00

nice weather. to slp. and to study.
i broke my own rule and go sch study today.
thanks to the weather.
if nt i dunno how to survive.

kinda discipline today. study from 8am to 3pm.
how many hours is dat? abt 6?
deduct some time for chats tho.
6 hrs. and i nv count. i still want to study.
LOL. think addicted liao. cant help.

den GREEN is juz horrible la..
monsters.
slimes.
it crash with RED.
(wierd combination i mean)
ya. was kinda CUA-DIO dat i walked the wrong way out.

in the mrt.. met this china guy
so challenging la.
the slang.. plus my hearing..
and the super-fast speed summore.
all i heard was
"zhen fu da sha bu shi zuo zhe liang?"
can u do that within a sec?
LOL. luckily i caught dat..

walked home alone.
dat 20-min journey home.
love the weather.
so cooling.. so refreshing..

den down my water.
600ml
den?
listen mp3
den walk lo. continue to walk.
feeling so down.
i feel so drunk

i've know i've been doing things i shldnt do
yet i'm doing it over and over again
and i'm not sick of it!
i'm nt regretting my wrongdoings
and i know i will still continue with this.

dat's wad my mind tell me.
i'm nt in any mood now.
why cant she juz calmly listen to me??
FOR ONCE?
affecting me with her stupid att......

yea.. me.
A.MATHEMATICS. HERE I AM!!!!!

2006-09-17T19:57:00.000+08:00

sianz.. gg to 8 now.. i'm good girl today. i studied. and not forgetting to play for a while la.. LOL (i'm using the com now) i seriously need help for my physics.. i juz realised dat i cant really understand those electro- chapters.. sianz. it's getting me very fed up.. cuz i dun get it why i cant understand. haiz.. mic cant seem to receive my sms.. sthg's wrong with her phone? or mine? den if i would ask someone to study physics tml, most of them might reject ba... cuz tues is a maths. most prob they will be mugging a maths tml, not physics. haiz..

i like the wind today.. so cooling. keep me calm.. hehex. but this cold keep waking me up from my 'naps'. i dun get to nap in the end, shivering like hell. wear jacket la! lazy... NOT UNTIL I UNDERSTAND THOSE ELECTRO- CHAPTERS!

trying to understand...
i cant let MsNg down..
physics. another hope for A1.

2006-09-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

.... juz who's dat idiot who made me so damn eff today? it's getting more and more 'unanswerable'.. blame me for dunno how to read between lines ='(

my eng is poor.

2006-09-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

yea.. right now some ppl out there might be celebrating now.. while me sorrowing here.. i know i cant feel this way but i cant help it.. zhen me ban?

i feel dat i'm a lair........
A BIG BIG lair.....

2006-09-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

woots!!! i finally changed my blogskin.. JayChou! so cool. all thanks to these two wonderful people: yin yuan and teresa!! thank you very much! i LOVE u two!! haha =)

2006-09-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

dunno wad to say.. dory again.. LOL.
I WAS THINKING ALOT OF WAD TO WRITE HERE JUZ NOW DE!!! WHY????

ok.. rmb le den say. rmb wad? lol. i think my memory space full now. full of SID! dead manx.. i'm gg to get strip down my maths pro post.. juz now's exam so screwed! ehx. NO. not screwed.. cannot say dat. yeah, i'm gg to score the highest! woots (like real)

den think after today. i wun be using the com liao.. i dunno la. i'm gg over my ah ma hse and stay there and STUDY! serious. i'm gg to study.. at least there's no distraction there. no com. no games. no phone. no unwanted noise.. the only thing there is the sound from the altar. the sound of the speaker which goes 'namoahmituofo' for 24/7. maybe dat can calm me down?

it's hard to part with the com. i know i will. i will miss alot of things.. miss game. miss maple and fren shad, kim. wahh. miss the time talking in msn. to strangers..? LOL. exam. cant help. so many ppl pia like hell. while i'm still stuck to the com for the past few days which is suppose for me to study de. anww. i think i'm nt the only one. =P seems like there's alot more ppl out there who's worse than me. at least i studied something everyday. =) it's the quantity only la.. but besides the com, i still study! yea.. too much time wasted.

nxt paper is gg to be tough. cuz it's bio AND geog. i'm dead.. i'm so dead. i'm weak in these. how? with 3 days only to pia.. or less.. cuz i cant sit still and study.. hmm.. time taken away like dat.. aww. time flies, like rocket. (anything faster than dat? COMET? nah.. LIGHT!!) not long u will hear me talk abt o lvl liao.. SIGH...

acchhoooooo!!! sianz... why do i suffer from flu when the exam juz started? more papers awaiting for me. i want to do well. yea.. i know i muz drink more water. throat infection is getting me soon!!! now i'm sneezing like hell.. but nt to the extent to make me wanna kill.......

i'm dumb
i'm idiotic
i cant think
i'm stupid
i received
i'm nt accepting
i am ignoring
i am selfish
i am retarded
i dun care and
i really dun wan care
i am doing all these
for wad
i know i do it diliberately
but why?
reason?
i'm really doing all these..
i know..
but i dun get it why.

LEAVE ME ALONE! this is ME.. ME! GET IT?
if u cant accept.. TOO BAD.

2006-09-06T17:32:00.000+08:00

I DUN NEED CARE.
I DUN WANT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE!! WHICH INCLUDES YOU!!!
YOU!!
GET IT?!
YOU!!! (DEFINE 'YOU' URSELF)

i'm now dealing with my own stress.. leave me alone.. i dun wan external pressure. so dun talk to me.. dun worry abt me. i wun jump. i'm nt dat silly. k? and for ur sake, i'm PERFECTLY ALRIGHT! juz treat as if i dun exist!!

dun u ever try to talk to me! STOP IT BEFORE I VENT ALL MY ANGER AND SAY STHG WHICH U PPL DUN WANNA HEAR. I CAN BE VERY NASTY FOR ALL U KNOW

ppl.. dun care abt me. and dun try telling others wad i'm now. cuz it has nothing to do wif u ppl gossips!!

(this msg doesnt concern any fren of mine - not close, close, very close - wadeva u choose)

2006-08-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

tml's teachers' day!!! woots~!!! woots~!! i'm juz super high today!! i shaldnt write anything which will spoil my mood here.. =)

yep.. i'm nt gg to talk abt wad happen in ctss except for the breakfast party which doesnt seem to be breakfast but buffet dinner.. LOL

den after sch went back to XINGNAN!! haha.. as usual, went back with mic. den the hall staircase was blocked but we're not stupid!! xingnan is my primary sch leh.. at least for the last year after it renovated. we WALKED UP the stairs from the sides.. arent we smart? haha other ex-pupil juz waited in the canteen, so ke lian. we seemed to be the oldest there.. haha. i dun care.. I'M GOING BACK NXT YEAR.. THE YEAR AFTER. AND AFTER. AND AFTER!! maybe i'll be a teacher there ya?

so we went to find MsNg. same la.. she say we dint change.. but my physics so lousy.. i dunno wad to say to her. =( for dat, i'll have to work harder to score for all my science.. i DIE oso muz get at least A for all the sci.. i want to bring back good news nxt year when i visit xingnan nxt year! =)

den saw jx's teacher.. "u look familiar but i dun rmb seeing u" ms lim said.. haiz.. she nv teach me la. but my brother. and i went to the parent-staff interaction the other time with my dad. bad news man.. but expected.. ms lim say he failed his english again and was afraid he cant make it in PSLE.. and it's a month's away!!! she want me to help la. but HOW? like he'll listen to me..

den ian, bang hao and yi yong came.. den ruolin came, struggling to enter the staff room.. haha. meet ms ng.. juz talk alot la.. all abt o lvl and jcs. so i really muz do well.. haha.. so reluctant to go off la. but ms ng has to entertain her class.. and the teachers in xingnan so ke lian.. today have to teach usual lesson until 6pm..

went to find lin lao shi.. 5I'06 chinese teacher.. and she still rmb me!! zhou lao shi oso.. i'm so popular!!! wahhahaa.. and she reminded us of having lessons in the container classroom!! so cool!!! haha. and so FUN! dat time cuz the sch's renovating ma.. it's so fun studying in containers la!! ppl.. i dun think u have dat before. A YEAR OF LESSON IN CONTAINER!! how cool is dat?

den went down to HOD room find chen lao shi.. and i nominated him for the chinese tcher award thing.. he saw it =) so happy to see him la. den he ask for our chinese result.. so glad dat i've nt disappoint him.. =) we're still not bad.. suddenly dat yang ping pop out from no where.. i tot he's nt coming.. and he didnt asked my sis along!! anw, heck la.. my sis dun wanna go back le.. haha. he still as lame as ever.. laugh laugh laugh.. we are crazy ppl manx.. they say i laugh too much and non-stop today.. haiz.. isnt dat me?

den went to the canteen to wait for time to pass. den den den den den.. haiz.. shld i write? LOL. i dun care.. i saw him! lol.. but still dare not go up to him and say 'hi'.. i wanted to.. my old fren.. cant i juz say a simple greeting? i feel so dumb.. probably there's his fren beside him and i dun feel like breaking in juz like dat. juz feel wierd.. so in the end.. failed again.. thanks ruolin for trying to help.. i'm juz a coward. nvm abt dat before someone gets jealous.. >.<

so we waited in the canteen.. den saw Mr Low.. haha.. he like so busy like dat.. ian keep saying him fat.. haha.. he's the one giving birth? and his figure got like this after 2 children? lol. funny sia.. so laugh. i screw lose today.. over excited in seeing my frens and teachers i think.. primary has always been the best time i ever had so far =) talk talk talk.. i'm so HIGH!

haha.. den we walked out of the sch reluctantly.. (haiz.. i juz dun wish to leave Xingnan)
lol.. yp trying to show me some magic tricks.. NO. he's exposing them all la.. stupid.. if wan to be pro as bh and ian i think there's still 10 more years down the road =P yy went home.. he seemed so cool today la.. dun talk de. so quiet.. haha. nvm.. so we walked to KFC to have our lunch.. den more tricks from ian la!! he so pro in magic!!! haha.. he can guess my card from my expression la.. mic so scare lo. scardy cat! =P haha.. cuz bh bend the card on her hand without touching it!!!

i juz dun feel like separating with them la. but we still have to go anyway. haiz.. dun care.. we're going to organise another gathering after o lvl!!! yay!!(yp's hse again? LOL)

=) HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!! (=

2006-08-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

finally, juz when i tot dat i'll nv complete my testimonial on time.. I'VE COMPLETED!!! thank for the motivation. haha. and now my testimonial look so PERFECT!! haha.. flipped tru my file of certs yest and realised dat i've got lots of achievements!!! WOOTS! I'm so proud of myself!!! haha. i'm MATHEMATICS GENIUS!!!

haiz.. so fast.. prelim's here. PRELIM.. and i dun think i've study enough! i'm so dead! SO DEAD!! i want to go have good result for prelim so dat i can enter JC!! i know i can do well if i want.. I WANT!

nvm.. argh!!! juz now receive jay chou's new song from shirlyn.. argh! ARGH!! why why why??? WEI SHEN ME? y ask the stupid fei yu qing sing with him?? no wonder la.. listen the voice so nice.. den suddenly one gay voice pop out from no where.. -.- sian dao.. scare me.. the voice is so anti-jay chou's class la... the two voice doesnt match somehow.. BBM? even if it is.. it's still wierd.. lol.. xian zai liu xing ar? love song muz sing with gal ma.. NOT gay.. =( dun care.. i know there'll be better songs in his new album!!! i'm looking forward to his album release!!! woots~!!

ya.. and speaking abt the week(s) to come... woots~!!! i WON A MOVIE MARATHON DOUBLE PASS!!! how cool is dat? my sis oso won the marathon pass too!!! woots! cool! 3 movies back to back!!! and it's on 1/9!! cant wait for dat day to arrive..

MIRACLES..

2006-08-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

things are getting more and more crazy!!! i dunno how to describe.. i'm juz getting crazier everyday.. i've always wanted to be like this!! and yay! dream come true! thanks to u!

haiz.. there's still one thing.. HIDING.. i really hate dat.. why muz ppl talk? why muz ppl kpo? why muz ppl care abt things which they shldnt? argh!! i'm fed up!! why? i'll nv be one.. dat's y my antenna short la.. sometime it's good nt to know so much.. =)

nvm abt dat.. I DUN CARE.. juz dun wan to make the class go crazy dat's all..

2006-08-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

can time juz stop for the moment..? i think it's gg too fast le.. the time seemed so precious to me.. see.. one day's gone like dat.. and i did nt study!! lol.. tml.. anyway it's worth 'wasting' today's time.. =D

i think i'm gg crazy.. and the next thing i might see is an 8 pts for my o lvl.. XD.. things seemed to be like miracles recently.. was dat cuz of u?

2006-08-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

went to sch on my Medical Leave.. but anyway i'm feeling better today.. and i did not take my medicine!!! keep on guard! LOL

nothing much in sch anyway except dat today's KHAI ENN'S BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! lol.. i like her bag.. cuz it's RED?

after sch actually wanted to do phy prac de.. but.. i pon~! woots! i pon phy prac!! i was still worrying dat ms chen will call me and say "isabella! come back to sch immediately for the prac!!!" but luckily.. no.. haha.. so went disappearing with someone..

lunch.. butt din have much.. i cant eat much tho.. later i'm gg to get pain! LOL. i miss food. maybe this is a better way of dieting? i dunno..

so so so.. it was rather boring.. not u but the place.. walking to and fro the 'dangerous zone'.. sorry! but i didnt care much later.. i started to think.. isabella is someone whom do wad she like and wants to do... so.. why do i need to care so much then? but then my safety first la.. =p

and some good news today!!! woots~!! i think i'm gg crazy very soon!! i'm getting happier and happier each day.. there's seem to be good news to me every now and then.. =) I PASS MY GRADE 8 PIANO EXAM WITH MERIT!!! woots~!! ppl might think.. merit? so wad? haha.. but to me it's super good liao la.. cuz i din expect to pass anyway.. btw.. it's 3 marks to distinction.. so i was super happy dat i din have much lesson wif my tcher today.. haha laughing all the way.. dat means.. i'm gg to do my DIPLOMA very soon!!! i cant wait.. i juz love the piano!! woots~~~!!!! i nv eat medicine.. LOL..

HAHA.. and RED is really making HIGH.. yup.. so cutting the red paper too!!! i cant wait to fold every single piece!!!

k.. guess dat's all.. smilez =)

2006-08-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

sick! have u ever heard of stomach virus? lol.. the doc say i'm having dat. wierd disease.. which cause my loss of appetite.. me stomachache.. haiz.. y like dat? so i was asked not to eat so much.. half the usual serving will do.. so today.. eat so little.. and this medicine which is suppose to be taken 1 hr b4 my meal. but it cause drowsiness.. LOL. so 1 hr later i was aslp instead la..

yep.. so i was somehow a free jailbird today!! i can skip focus!! but i gt a feeling dat i'll be dead if i'm gg to sch tml. =P cuz i missed bio chem and phy prac!! argh!!! sianz.. juz imagine if i have to do dat simultaneously.. i'll be dead!!

so anw.. today.. is a day worth remembering for..

i wanna fly!!!

2006-08-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

had the first maths night focus today!! actually was quite tired le... but dunno why.. i start to do the paper. den the more i do the more i'm awake! AMAZING! do until gg home liao still wanna do.. but anyway it's so late le! I WANT GO HOME!! dun look at me like dat.. juz ASK! haha.. i hate ppl who beat abt the bush.. haha but i am one izzit?

HOHOHO.. so today had my oral.. dunno y... there's a sudden strength in me which gave me confidence.. made my mind so calm.. made me feel so relax and not nervous during the 'o' lvl oral exam.. thanks u.. i think it's u which gave me this power.. i nv expect my oral to be so easy la... even my stomach upset wasnt there during dat time.. i gt a feeling dat this is the best oral exam i've ever had.. juz sthg which i can talk abt.. thanks for dat question!!! it's so link to my everyday life.. i have alot to talk abt!!! haha.. cuz i'm different from others! I'M SPECIAL!

but now.. the pain is gradually coming back!! i think i'll go see doc someday.. sthg muz be wrong..

so after oral.. sit under umbrella and rot.. and make me feel so HOT! lol.. i really mean HOT as in scorching HOT!!! pls la.. there's sthg burning inside me which made me go red... so I DUN WANT TO SIT THERE.. but they dun wanna move.. so juz walk off lo.. LOL.. why muz i follow? (=P i feel so anti-social, some kinda biasness here..)

i somehow think dat i'm doing sthg which was so not-like-me-in-the-past (cuz i was left wif no choice).. haha.. so.... obvious. but. WHO CARES?

so.. trapped everywhere we go.. LEFT --- CANNOT!!! RIGHT--- CANNOT!! LOL.. this world is full of ppl -_-" hide and seek is NOT FUN.. but hiding with u is!! HAHA i'm mad!!!

ehx.. i really dunno how to continue from here le.. haha..

2006-08-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

dotz.. i've somehow forgotten wad happened yesterday..
nvm.. i'll start writing today maybe will rmb wad happened yest.. haha =P

argh!! du zi tong!!! now i can feel the pain inside now.. i can feel dat my gastric is pumping.. think dat rolling on the floor is the best solution for me now!!! to think dat i can ren for so long.. persevere!! hah! muz be dat awful fried kway teow i ate yesterday!!! hahahaha.. i think i rmb wad happen yest liao..

yest was my dental app.! LOL. to think dat i actually forgotten.. den den den.. while gg back to sch... err..................... NVM.. i have nv been so guang ming zheng da before!!! see see lor.. how ppl infer is another thing.. =P I DUN CARE how ppl are gg to see us NOW.. cuz we are somehow being trapped.. ok.. shall stop talking abt dat.. i hate to play hide-and-seek!!

tml tml!!! tml's my o lvl oral exam!!! den if my gastric prob is not gg to be ok tml.. den how??? i cant afford to fail my english! pray for me!!!

there's alot for me to write now.. but i dun feel like writing.. i wan painkiller!!!!!!!

2006-08-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

think i disappointed u juz now.. yep.. i've gt alot to apologise.. so i'm back again to write sthg.. probably this might make u happy.. =) abt wad u asked me.. maybe cuz i was being 'threatened', 'blackmailed' (nt by u of cuz) or wadeva u might call dat. k la.. it's my fault.. dun blame anybody.. i'm nt sure if i shld do wad i'm doing.. dat's why i did nt really think real deep abt it.. so juz now.. when i was so alone.. sthg tell me to think deep.. dat wad if.. yup.. wad if.. wad if i lose u one day.. and the u i knew is gone juz like dat..
so simple.. i've juz realise how hurt u were when u saw my reply.. i juz dun wish any of dat will happen... so i've nv tot of dat qn b4!!

it's the tot of losing u which made me realise how impt u are to me..

smilez ya? =)

2006-08-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

nothing could excite me more other than this!!! (well.. perhaps there is..) woots~~!!!! jay chou's new album is releasing SOON!!! i cant wait to preorder it.. but now.. $$$$$$$.. haiz.. i cant seem to get away with money.. =( haiz.. blame ny retardness.. i still dunno wad's dat new album called and i dunno if i can preorder his new album NOW.. u call me a great fan? lol.. but it's always me alone.. who got all these news.. so i'm slow and retarded.. happy? pokemon oso like dat.. haiz.. for these.. i can say:

I'M RETARDED!!!

ok nvm.. i'm nt.. retarded... at least i know wad's happening.. haha.. at least i know jay chou's album's coming out!!! i cant wait to hear his new music!!!!! but NOW.. b4 september.. I MUZ MAKE MY PREORDER!!!! I DUN CARE!!! haha.. den i'll get poster? or puzzle? LOL.. i oso dunno preorder gt wad gift ='(

and and and.. i still got alot of things wanna do.. ='( my pirates of the carribean.. (all thx to her manx).. I WANT TO WATCH TOKYO DRIFT!!! $$$$$$$ argh.. i'm nt money face... it's juz dat i've got cash flow... haiz... chem bklet.. bio bklet.. prom!!! i haven paid!!!!!!! will money drop from the sky if i cry?? LOL.. wad will the world be like without $$$??? HOW GOOD WOULD IT BE.. if i'm rich!!!!!

LOL... I'M MAD!! drive me CRAZY!!! make me HIGH!!!
(i think it's time for my medicine?)

2006-08-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

pls.. dun think dat my english is good.. the lyrics is adapted from high sch musical.. sounds nice ya?? there's too many things that's hard to belive..

ok la.. talk abt today.. today's my brother's bdae!!! woots~!! i finally got his pokeball today.. i'm sincere de ok? i went to work to buy his present... i need more $$$$!!!! went to jp early in the morning.. nt early la.. juz earlier than usual.. went to have lunch at lai lai kitchen.. den buy my bro's present.. den went to popular.. suddenly realise dat there's RL promo today!!! argh!!! Sara nv call me!~ so called my dad to bring my RL shirt for me.. yipee!!! i'm there to help.. had a busy day today.. although today there's not much of ppl.. haha.. den was given a task.. $50!!! haha nvm.. i'm nt gg to say wad's dat..

haha.. i cant write..

2006-08-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see
You were always there beside me

Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

This feelings like no other
I want you to know
I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you
so lonely before
i finally found what i've been looking for

So good to be seen
So good to be heard
Don't have to say a word

For so long I was lost
So good to be found
I'm loving having you around

This feeling's like no other
I want you to know
I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before,
I finally found what I've ben looking for

2006-08-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

sthg juz make me feel happier each day.. yup.. anyway.. there's nothing to be sad abt today..

ok.. morning.. even b4 i reached sch.. sthg funny already happened.. guess wad.. i finally overslp this morning.. i woke up when the bus uncle was driving to park the bus.. at the interchange.. so i press the bell.. so the uncle might have tot dat sthg 'wierd' is happening.. cuz by right there shldnt be anymore ppl in the bus.. haha i'm in the upper deck la.. den i walk dn the stairs and called the uncle.. he gt a shock!! LOL.. the response he gave.. "ee.. yooo.. xia si ren!" i pratically scare him off his wits.. hahahahaha!! and now is the lunar 7th month.. whooo~~!!!

den den den.. i today den realise dat i'm getting back my CHINESE o lvl result!!! was so nervous la.. i've nv felt so nervous in my life b4.. o lvl.. wait wait wait and wait.. and finally.. i got my result!!!! woots~~~!!! A1.. i couldnt quite blive la.. but anyway dat's wad i wished for. i've been scoring B3 for the sch test.. i tot dat.. i'm gg to die this o lvl.. i screw up my qn no. i tot i screwed up my compo... argh!!! =) i finally made it tru!!! i can finally put my mind at ease le. now have to focus on other 7 subjects.. my humans, eng.. dunno how.. i juz cant seem to pass.. argh!!! den my 8 pts.. is like so hard to get.. i dun care!!! i'm gonna win Ben-----!!!

tml's my bro's bdae.. how how how..?? i haven buy his pokeball yet!! i still have to get him his bdae cake!!! it's all $$$$$$$$$$$$.. money money and money!! argh!!! ya.. and i told someone dat i'm gg to get a big big bdae cake on his bdae.. o.0 how to have a happy bdae when there's no cake? small cake cant make one happy either.. big cake is still best ya.. ya.. and i want a big big present on my bdae as return =P..

haiz.. i dunno wad to write here.. but den i feel wierd.. wierd.. and becoming 'special'... gradually... juz keep smiling =) shaldnt talk more le..

make me happy.. make me smile.. be me!!! =D

2006-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

LOL - everybody knows how to use this word.. in typing.. but do they know how to do it?? bet they dun!!

it's sthg fun ok.. if u can LOL.. den u can be as drunk as me after drinking plain water (or izzit dat distilled water's fault?).. den u will go walking zigzag.. in a longer distance... and a longer time.. i cant blive i'm walking so slow!!.. but i'm hyper all the way.. LOL.. can i juz roll on the floor? laughing is contagious.. so it brings along other diseases to others too while passing it.. Oops! haha.. but there seems to be some ppl out there who are super resistance to this contagious laughter of mine..

ok.. i juz heard of UFO.. i saw lightning.. all in the TV... woots~~!!

yep.. and sthg which really make me happy today (besides the free bus ride).. guess wad.. u may think i'm mad.. yup.. while i'm mad i can do things u cant blive.. i felt so wei da!! LOL.. i helped an indian old lady with her shopping bags!! and i'm feel with her blessing... dat feeling is damn shiok la... although dat's nt suppose to be my real purpose... everyone is alighting at the same stop.. but did anyone spotted the old lady who is struggling with so many bags of heavy stuff, trying to walk down the stairs of the bus? since no one is doing it.. so.. guess dat's my job..

dat probably explains who i am and wad i am..

i wun compare with others.. i'm me.. it's me... the special me..
no one can ever compare.. =) smilez

2006-08-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

hah.. i feel dat i cant laugh dat much without ur presence.. haha... i love the feeling of laughing out loud - LOL.. laugh all i want.. laugh till i go crazy over small matter.. buahaha...

i'm early today.. once again.. happy birthday SINGAPORE!!! sing sing and more singing!!! how i wish i'm the one standing up there in kallang stadium.. singing with passion.. wearing red and white.. and being very HIGH!!! jumping ard with enthusiasm.. ok.. i sounded crazy.. i'll nv do dat if i'm really on stage.. hahahhahahaha.. sthg has to entertain me today!! myself!! and national day!!! wootss~!~! plus red and white and black!!! songs and more songs!!! i think i'm addicted..

kk.. nvm abt me.. think i'm super high now.. sing sing sing... me me me!! it's me ok?? i'm me.. no one is gg to change me.. haiz.. i'm nt dat high actually.. rather i feel quite sian today.. as in.. now.. cuz i'm juz crapping here waiting for dunno wad.. wad am i waiting??? my mind is blank.. i know i'm waiting for sthg.. but wad izzit??? someone help!!!

probably juz staring into space to waste time... oh manx!! wad am i doing? o lvl leh.. den i dun feel at all nervous or do sthg abt it.. my aim, my target.. it's drawing further from me.. i think i need motivation... hey!! u out there, my motivator.. where are u?? u re suppose to motivate me to study de!! i dun wan another broken promise!!! (it's ok if u dun care..) haiz... haiz.. can anyone make me laugh?? now? ok.. i'm nt feeling really well.. ahahaha. think it's mood swing.. (so fast?) how come gals get mood swings as and when they like? i hate my mood swing.. i blame it on everybody!!! argh!!!! GET ME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

writing blog everyday seemed to be a torture to me~!! i'm always trying to crack my brain to think of sthg to write.. which kills my brain cells.. for all u know, it might be 3%? lol. wad toking me?

i knew wad to write today de.. but i forgot le.. my thoughts... for dat moment only.. den tot of posting but here i am.. in a blank.. i've forgotten wad to write liao.. blame it on my super short term memory..

think i'm gg to be dead in a dew days time... dunno la. i've got rather no mood today.. cuz cuz cuz i saw somebody whom i dint wish to see.. but i seemed so fated with her. is singapore dat small dat she has to go where i'm gg???

ya talking of singapore.. it's NATIONAL DAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! yohoo!!! think dat's gg to keep me high again!!! let's sing!!!

and i will sing
a song of home
a land of peace
where dreams are born everyday
my home
wherever i may be
i believe
u will always be a part of me

wad i did for Singapore? sing!!! at least i'm enthu ok???

yup.. there was this competition today where u have to collect all recycled material den construct a vibrant and global city. i could say my windmill is a masterpiece!!! woots~!! wad am i saying??? but we din win in the end... why whywhy????

dunno wad's wif me.. i'm losing appetite.. which is like.. so rare.. i couldnt finish my $5.40 lunch.. wad a waste.. i'm left wif $1.60.. omg.. think i muz get some money tml... i need to pay for the bio bklet..prom and chem bklet.. dat's gg to be abt 30 bucks??? and the pokeball which i promise to get for my brother for his bdae.. i shldnt be complaining la.. blame myself for spending too much on sthg which is of not much use.. haha.. hahahahaha

yep.. and i bought my piano sonata today... which has cost me $25 bucks..............

omg!!! am i spending too much????

2006-08-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

again... i dunno wad to post.. oh ya.. sthg i wanted to write.. i finally bought my mp3 player!! 512MB for less than 100 bucks.. haha.. ok..

i'm gg on stage to sing tml!!! my dream.. although it's a small stage.. at least i wun regret dat i did not ask to go up and sing.. but.. ppl gave me comments dat my singing is bad~.. =(

kk.. juz some tots and feelings...

yup.. yesterday was when i could laugh and smile most.. suppose to cheer myself up and have self entertainment.. laughing is contagious and i think it's gd.. when u laugh.. u can really 4get alot of things for the moment.. i've looked things on the bright side le.. nah.. i'm always on the bright side unless someone bring me to the dark side.. hate mood spoiler.. hate glum faces.. most of all.. hate dat attitude face.. (i'm not speaking abt anyone..).. i juz dun like ppl to spoil my good mood dat's all.. i had enough of unhappiness.. enough of pain.. it's time to let go.. i know.. so laughing tru the day can make me happy.. cuz.. i dun rmb sad things which i suppose to be gd. it's not dat i'm trying hard to forget.. but my memory space is much too small to contain too much junk..

haha.. seeing u laughing like mad yesterday cuz of my highly-contagious disease.. it's hard to blive.. the tot of it is juz funny.. i dun really know u though... but dat laughter.. the smile... (instead of a moarn and long black face..) can really brighten up my day.. dunno y.. my feeling is like a mirror... i'll have the same feeling as the person i'm wif.. so u get it why.. i'm sensitive to mood destroyers...

thanks weixian
=) smilez

2006-08-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

i'm here now cuz i dunno when is the nest time i'll be posting again.. all thanks to my laggy com.. erm.. ppl.. if u're reading this blog.. pls read with patience.. i took ALOT of time loading this page...

this is wad i realised...

when a girl is feeling down...

first scenario:
she'll confront her friend (a girl)
outcome will always be the same as before..

second scenario:
she juz went to talk to a boy..
she defintiely feel better..

WHY WHY WHY???? it' so so so true la..

i dunno how to say and explain.. but it's frm my experiences...

forget abt that... i'm crazy today.. probably beos i did too much maths?????? it's good to smile whenever u can... it can brighten up somebody's day... and u'll feel better too.... isnt it gd? =)

blank... my mind is blank.. NOW!!!

wad shld i write??????????? write write write.. wad??? i deleted someone's name here.. SRY.. nvm... maybe i'll talk abt it again..

2006-08-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahaha!!!! guess how excited i was when i found the pic?? haven been feeling like this for so long le!!! hahahahahahahahahaha!!! i'm mad! i'm mad!!! i was searching his pic everywhere trying to find how he look recently, although i dunno if the pic was recent or not.. he looked the same as before..

haiz.. i dunno how to put it... there was too much memory of him for me.. my primary sch *ahem*.. not really la. but the whole sch know de.. but not the teachers.. oh manx! i'm feeling HIGH!! i think i will kena fever tml.. but if he's really back for me, it wun be the same anymore.. but guess that he's not interested in me anymore.. or probably forgotten a person by the name of Isabella =( couldnt be la.. 4 years + 4 years.... anw he's already stored in my long-term memory.. i dun think in my life would i forget him.. NEVER

can say we are playmates lah... we are juz like 'hating' each other.. i beat u, u beat me.. that was sooo childplay... both our sports was rather good.. but i can say he's really good. he's normally first in running.. den the skipping competition.. he really can last.. champion for continuous skipping.. variation i dunno.. i got 1st in variation.. cuz of my skipping rope.. i lost in the continuous.. the rope juz flew out of the screw.. and the last game i played with him was badminton.. guess dat's almost the end of primary sch... probably it's my willing part...

dunno how to explain again.. i feel excited yet i feel like crying at the same time.. there's too many things i regretted for that.. haiz.. i know i shldnt be thinking of that now.. but... it's really the best part of my life so far... memories of him.. too much to say.. juz imagine, if he never break his promise the other time.. i cant imagine wad i'm now. he didnt promise me... but his friends.. so i was waiting waiting and waiting... until i really put him out of my mind after meeting another HIM (u know who) who doesnt really bring me much joy.. more pains and sorrows instead.. that's when i miss this primary sch boy again...

it was really a struggle to think of.. one which i cant let go but have to and the other i cant even meet with his face... i juz want the feeling of being loved. i cant help it. it's in me... it's hard to let go.. but i finally did it.. i'm halfway tru.. the gap is drawing further, i cant do anything.. let time heal me eventually. why it's always me.. waiting waiting and waiting...?? quite dumb la.. i'm very devoted de ok? but why it's always me who's heartbroken instead..

nvm.. look ahead.. wad past is the past...
time... will pass by quickly and fade off all my pain..
that's me.. i'll continue smiling as long as i can..

2006-08-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

heex.. i found this by accident in the friendster

if you have been constantly reading my blog in the past, the guy on the left of the picture is one of the HIM i referred to. he's the guy from my primary sch. shuai eh? i shall not say much here now.. i'll post another one abt him.. bleh xD

2006-07-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

juz wanna ask:

ANYONE OUT THERE!
anybody collect the Pokemon Ultimate Sticker Collection?

if you are interested,

i have the stickers for:

sale - $0.20 per piece
exchange - 1 for 1 xchange

interested, pls tag my board, leaving your contact details too (email preferred)

*fren, pls help me keep a lookout for anybody(siblings, cousins) who's collecting them!!!

2006-07-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

i dun get it why, i dun get it why I DUN GET IT WHY!!!!!!!!

why do i still feel like this again.. i tot i was going to take that and be wad i am.. but now.. haiz.. i saw them juz now.. den i was like.. i feel so............. argh!!! dunno how to describe!!! last time when i see them together i didnt feel this way.. but today.. why why why????? i got so long to stabalise my mood on that matter.. but why. why do i feel like this again??????????

you know, the sorrow when i see them.. it was gradually faded.. but it came back again today!!! this result me down with flu.. probably not flu.. when i tot of it, i juz feel sick.....

why am i feeling so depressed on this stupid issue? I STILL DUN GET IT!!

i'm down with perhaps, 'serious flu'.

i still like him ya.........

2006-07-21T14:17:00.000+08:00

pokemon = childish?

i dont think so..

if playing the game is childish, then how long is ur childhood? mine, forever (are u trying to say playing maple is childish?)
if u want to get an addiction, does that mean that u muz smoke or get on drugs?
if reading the comics is childish, then wad's naruto?
if cartoon is childish, then wad's spongebob? winnie the pooh?
if u're not collecting stickers, then wad do u collect? hello kitty?
wad's disneyland for? i've nv been there b4. and i would love to see.
so wad if u're a girl, does that mean u play wif barbie doll? u would probably react with a '...eeee barbie..."

arent they the same? it's juz dat my character is different from others. dat's all.

why would the old still talk abt mickey mouse at this age?
wad's so great abt growing up? grow up so that u cant think of anything in a child's mind..
so wad if u've grown up. does dat means u'll nv touch anything u have when u were a child forever?
wad's the point of getting mature so early when u are still spending most of ur time studying now?

why be wad the rest are when u can be urself?

i'm me, i know wad i'm doin
i'm different from others, i have my thinking
isnt it nice to be an innocent child and have no worries?
i'm me, i know wad i like
i'm not like others who share common things in mind (of my age)
so i'm telling u now..

i'm special, i'm different. i'm nt the typical girl most ppl are talking abt. i'm me. it's me..
this is me, the real me..

see me again with a smile =)

-=+isabella+-

2006-07-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Isnt he the guy who will make gals go shouting for him?? haha.. i may be a bit of crazy but dun u think he's cool? handsome? cute? =P

Elvin Ng is juz making me go mad!!! as i said from the last show he acted, he's going to make it out as a famous clelbrity who WILL be even more famous than ZhenBinHui!!! muahahaha!!! (no offence) but i really like HIM!!

erm.. btw if u dunno who he is.. he's the guy who acted as a gangster in JoannePeh's show 'A Life Of Hope' and acting as a rich handsome boy now in 'Love in 0degreeC'.. this is the FIRST ever tv drama dat i watched this year!! isnt he powerful? hahahahaha =)

see his smile... u cant deny anything i say!!!

-=+ElvinNg!!!!!!!!!!!!+-

2006-05-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

yoz!! i finally posted.. 1 mth exact!! haha.. there's nothing to write.. but today.. juz write my terrible exp.. but cant be detailed cuz it concerns this whoever la (mosiac)

after wad happened today, i began to afraid of him.. he's getting more scary and i dunno wad's in his mind at all... ewww!!! the thought of it makes my hair stand.. a DRESS.. hanging nicely in the wardrobe would go missing in the morning and found it in HIS wardrobe, crumpled, rolled, hid in a small corner..
dat was juz scary.. scary.. juz imagine.. did he wear dat.. or wad else?

frens(boys) can i ask u a question.. are u all like this while u are growing up? or have u ever thought of it? i need to help him..

-=+counsellingisneeded+=-

2006-04-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

finally!!! speech day is over and no more CCA!!! but then.. haiz.. i'll miss guzheng very much.. the joy, the fun, the suffers we had.. the times when i lead and the success we got.. thanks to each and every person from gz. i'll miss everybody!!! hope the juniors will do a good job in the future..

yest.. suddenly nt feeling well, fever.. so kena sent home by mr murali cuz i still need to perform in the afternoon.. haiz.. and guess i've missed alot of fun cuz yest was the day to giv ur presents and letters to ur pals.. I MISSED IT!!! can any good souls tell me more abt it??? and poor pal of mine.. so sorry.. i forgot to pass the 'present' to the classmates.. so i'll giv it to u on monday instead.. couldnt find u after speech day.. sad sad sad.. y like dat?i always fall sick during big days and missed alot of fun.. nvm.. for those who's concern abt me. thanks peeps. i'm feeling better now.. i even performed.. hehex..

do i really look nicer when i smile? y is everybody telling me dat? i tot i smile very often? bleahx Xp

-=+haiz+=-

2006-04-06T15:40:00.000+08:00

time flies.. it's so april now.. almost 1 wk of april's gone.. at this rate it's going.. i haven really done anything much during the past 3 mths except for maths maths and more maths..

i'm crazy.. i'm gg to flunk all my other subjects.. as for physics.. it's driving me crazy.. the results i got for my revision tests.. like heart attack like dat..i can score as high as full marks and yet can fail very badly too.. i hate to answer all those exp qns.. i often score zer0 for dat exp qns.. i juz couldnt use eng.. my eng sux!! if all qns are exp qns.. i'll flunk all..

sometime it's juz nt good to flunk all the times.. cuz u'll get use to it.. and u think dat flunking ur tests is no big deal.. den u'll slack and flunk even more.. i think i'm one now.. no one cares.. my motivator's gone.. he's probably nt coming back anymore...

isabella wake up!! u muz have confidence and be independant ok? get urself motivated ok? if's u're nt going to care for urself, nobody would..

no one will.. NEVER
why am i feeling so sad?

-=+abandoned+=-

2006-03-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

haven been posting of late.. cuz nothing to write actually.. yeah.. i seem to spend lesser and lesser time wif the com.. which i suppose to be good.. haha.. each time i blog i would stay in front of the com for very long.. so might as well dun blog den can control the time used for useless stuff like posting craps here... not many ppl read my blog anyway.. and i can use this time to revise my maths.. finish it.. den near o lvl focus on other subjects.. cuz my maths so PRO!! =P buahahahaha.. no laa.. i'm idiot..

i'm getting more and more tired each day.. haiz.. after dat new wardrobe came, my hse is in a mess.. i've packed for a week liao.. but still so messy.. hope to find my emaths tys.. and the many pens i've lost.. throw away the sec2 stuff.. haha i keep rubbish.. i found my primary 2 tuition work!!! nvm.. rubbish rubbish and more rubbish dat's all.. after o lvl i gonna throw away all my worksheets!!! haiz.. still got loads haven pack finish.. dunno how.. come help me can? haha.. i gt a feeling dat i'll take mellinium to clear dat.. =p

andandand.. i want to buy mp4!!! so cool lo.. the one with camera is even cooler!! and it's so sleak!! found $100.50 in my bomberman.. haiz.. not enough.. but dat's only from my bomberman la.. hope i got the money for the mp4.. haiz.. i still dunno which one to buy.. shld i buy the one with or without the camera? difference 90 bucks.. and i'm still nt clear abt the memory space.. haiz... but i want!!! XY!! get dat for my belated bdae present can?? haha..

sianz.. tml got chinese mock exam.. physics test.. prize giving rehearsal.. sian sian sianzzzz!!! and ya.. thinking of the rehearsal.. juz now on my way to take bus saw my instructor.. omg.. she saw me for 2 times liao.. i pon GZ IN FRONT OF HER!!! not pon la.. juz dun want to go cuz tml got tests.. anyway i'm graduatin this year.. and i've always helped out alot in gz!!! rest for a few moments cannot meh? den went to creative wif mic and ke and we were all drenched!!! haha... real drenched den take bus home.. so cold~~! and was thinking of ways to get sick so tml can miss the tests and best of all!! rehearsal!!! haha.. i haven bathe.. i packed all the way till now.. den suddenly realised dat there's a com in my home!! -_-!! den here i'm!! tada!!

i hate man who beats woman!!!! (yea.. mentioning dat particular guy) =)

-=+p=f/a,hpg,i'mgettingsick!+=-

2006-03-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

it really hurts terribly inside..
cant help thinking
but asking myself to forget everytime
can i juz act blur?

-=+nibuzai+=-

2006-03-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

see the time now.. i'm still eating bun!!! omg.. i'm getting fat.. i noe.. and i know u can see.. haiz.. juz feel like eating.. the more i cant eat.. the more i want to eat.. nvm.. wad am i talking..

argh!!!!!!!!! my back hurts.. juz hit my back.. hope dat it's nothing serious.. cuz anything related to spine may paralyse any part of me.. P-A-I-N.. perhaps u wont see me anymore.. or u'll see me wheelbounded forever.. choi choi.. touch wood.. thanks to dat stupid chair.. and dat table behind.. and so zun!. hit right in the middle of my back..

hope the pain will go away tml...

-=+everythingwillbefine+=-

2006-03-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

ehx... i dunno laa.. i havent been posting for quite a few days le.. btw.. i haven touch the com since the start of sch hol till now.. and i'm slackin for these few days.. tell ya.. i only finished my MATHS.. dat's all.. and i think at this rate im, i'm dead.. there's still bio.. physics.. chem.. and ss SBQ.. haiz.. juz no mood to do... and i still promised myself to do it.. juz hope dat i'll finish it by sunday..

yay.. my mum bought me and sis a brand NEW wardrobe.. finally the DOORLESS one is gonna be replaced!! and it's coming tml!! woots~!! i'm so damn excited..

heex.. i'm wierd i know.. for these few days.. buahaha... i'm juz mad.. simply mad la.. dunno wad's in me.. and i didnt notice dat my braces can change colour.. hahax.. from blue and white to green and yellow!! OMG!! wad a huge difference of colour.. dat's pretty siao.. my teeth is juz not white.. i think i need whitening liao.. now the colour tone of my teeth is juz wierd... like a smoker.. yucks!

somemore.. another woots!!! hahaa.. i went to orchard wif my aunt a few days ago and finally got a reservation for the bk i wanted SOO MUCH.. yea.. i'm stupid the other time.. i din know dat i can order the bk i want from the info counter.. make me waste so many trips.. and yay!! and i'm collecting it within a month.. which means.. very FAST!! i can play the songs (basically jay chou's one la..) nice score.. nxt time if i gt chance to play for u peeps to listen..

MR LOW.. the nxt time i go back xingnan!! i play a nice song for u!! ok? promise!! b4 o'lvl.. tcher's day i'll go back!! manx.. i miss everybody in xingnan.. =(

-=+wad'sinme+=-

2006-03-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

cant believe it..
really went to join my sis for the taekwondo course...
better dun bully me
wait till u see..

7-days silence..

-=+nobodycares+=-

2006-03-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

u useless..
it's time to WAKE UP!!

isolated and condemn..

-=+areuleavingmealoneagain?+=-

2006-03-03T14:13:00.000+08:00

i cant help but to feel dat way
life is so unfair..
=(

-=+why+=-

2006-03-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

hah.. i kinda seem to force ppl.. haiz.. dunno.. nvm.. i gt my toblerone choc.. =) toblerone choc makes me think of me! when i was younger.. haha.. i used to like this choc very very much.. dunno when was it le.. and the first bar was given by.. my tcher? think dat was way so long ago le.. =) i'm nt really chocoholic like mic.. so din have much preference to chocs anyway.. so long as it's nice can le! haha.. thanks!! i so long nv eat dat le!!

today's maths lesson was another bored one.. mr ho cracked those lame jokes again.. and no one get it.. haha.. so this is enough to laugh le!! he dunno wad is malu.. so i tell him "no one gets ur joke!" den he's so think-skinned.. "this is not a joke!".. LOL.. erm... so the whole class laugh.. those cold laughter.. -_-" he say dat those are to keep us awake!! andandand.. it's nt true.. i gt proof.. i can tell u.. immediately after dat when he began to teach again, i fell aslp.. so it's back to the square one.. LAME!

immediately after maths was chem and mr murali was telling us the history of foolscap.. and we tot is another lame joke.. argh!!! nvm.. tchers are confusing sort of ppl.. which one is telling fact which one is nt.. which one to blive? dunno.. o.0

i'm smiling.. =) haha.. i'm brighten up today.. hahaha.. being happy is sthg so wonderful!!!

-=+i'manemotion-controlledpuppet+=-

2006-03-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

!!!! today's the first of march for ur info..

haiz.. sianz.. juz cant believe it's my bdae.. HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to myself.. haha.. not really very happy though.. juz cant imagine dat there's no one free to accompany u home.. i cried on the bus cuz of some stupid reasons.. now i find myself funny!!

nvm.. anyway.. all the unhappiness today got backups! so.. my mood today is so normal.. shall i get happy? yay! i'm happy... heex.. thanks the following ppl for the 'presents'..

-my sis for the zinc tote bag!! I LOVE U!!!
-aunts for the money!!
-ah fen jiejie for the money
-michele & khai enn for the pencil case
-dewi for the card and choc and the going-to-receive present
-luxuan for the bdae card.. thanks again.. kinda unexpected la.. was jk to u nia =p
-and the rest who wished me happy bdae.. =)

u peeps brighten up my day today!! stupid bad weather..

so today in sch.. heard dat the guys laughing at me.. for falling aslp in mr ho's class... and my head goes nod nod nod nod nod nod nod nod and nod.. haha.. i was unconcious for all i know.. but i know i was slping.. cuz his lesson was DAMN BORING can? and i hate his stupid lame jokes!! lame and cold.. plus i so tired.. so end up slping.. den was called the slpyhead by ms chen.. cuz the guys tell her.. -_-

so after sch.. all have CCA.. my sis nt free.. my cousin nt free.. haiz.. no choice to go home alone lo.. den stupid la.. reach home le den my dad (at home) sms me and tell me to go and take my cake.. so after dat dad bring me eat lunch den go gugu hse take my bdae cake.. haha.. she got it for me..! and... quite sad la.. mummy cant make it home to celebrate my bdae.. work work and work.. cant she juz spare a day for me? anyway.. she din gimme anything.. and i dun request la.. haiz.. today is juz sianz.. but thanks ppl anyway..!! =)

-=+ucontrolledmyfeelings+=-

2006-02-27T19:45:00.000+08:00

juz as i expected
dun need to lie
i saw it
i knew it all along
i know it'll nv be mine
so...
why?
why muz u lie?
unless there's a reason behind it
tell me WHY!

u are good to me
like u treat others
u are so mean to others
as well as me..

i'm confuse.
i'm lost..
i couldnt my way
to the colourful world out there

i want neither the truth or lie
dun get controlled
be wad u are
tell me wadeva u think u shld

please.. i'm really confused..
lead me to the way
where i'm suppose to go
GET OUT!

why is my world so colourless?
which is so simple yet complicated
i want colours.. COLOURS
colours to my world..

to cover the sad and loneliness of black and white

pls.. i'm very very tired.. stop the torture!

-=+canikillu?+=-

2006-02-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

haha.. haven been posting for quite a few days le.. cuz.. u know la.. i have to QUEUE UP.. and i dint really book the com b4 hand.. now my bro gimme abit time to write here.. so muz thank him la..

sianz.. later meeting my sis.. go out again.. yeah. to get me present!! muahaha...

ok.. let's talk abt yest.. haiz.. went orchard.. wif my sis.. yeah.. my sis.. she follow de la.. so sorry rose.. i got no time yesterday.. in a rush.. haha.. specially went down to town to get my exam pieces de.. couldnt get it in plaza sing.. so went to music essential.. woo.. and the shop is like so high-class? haha.. got alot music stuff de.. first time gg there.. and LUCKILY there is.. if nt i'll DIE.. if there's no book for me to bring to the exam hall..

so the next destination is heading to kinokuniya.. at taka.. wanting to get my piano score which has SOOO many scores of jay chou's new song!!but. but. but.. BUT!! i couldnt find it!!! argh!!!! i'm damn FED UP! haiz.. i want to buy dat for myself as my present de.. and i specially went down there to search for it.. ='( sianz..

so after dat rush to je and meet my aunt.. my sis went home la.. den she fetch me go west coast park for picnic.. haha.. they ask me go de.. den they are going to celebrate enen's bdae! haha.. together wif me!! 2-in-1 la.. so we share one cake.. =.= nvm dat's gd liao.. i nv tot they will celebrate my bdae.. haha.. and enen didi's bdae happens to be on the 29th of feb.. so this is also early celebration la.. if nt he no bdae le.. haha.. and i got my presents!! as usual ang pow.. to get wad i want.. haha.. better than nothing la.. thanks for the early bdae surprise.. muahaha.. =)

bleh.. =P i'm gg out liao.. buaiz.. presents!! woots!

-=+getmyselfwadiwant+=-

2006-02-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

hehex.. was having my ice cream.. dunno y.. sudden craving for ice cream.. =) so long nv eat le.. juz now actually want to eat wif mic de but dunno where to eat so in the end take bus and go home..

sianz... =I tml gt bio test.. ve been studying since two days ago.. and make notes.. so enthu.. but till today still haven finish doing and revising.. I DUN UNDERSTAND wad the chap is talking abt!!!

was rather sleepy during lesson today.. i'm juz tired.. and yest was probably the earliest time i'm slping.. 11.30pm.. and i'm proud of it.. cuz i manage to slp earlier than usual.. =) i feel dat this is the more disciplined me le.. haha.. thx to my notebk... as well as YOU.. who gave me the motivation to do work.. muahha.. i'm getting SMARTER!! n more HARDWORKING!!! yay..

ok.. off to studying bio.. if nt i'll FAIL.. buaiz

-=+headingtowardsmyself+=-

2006-02-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

i pratically HATE bugs which is flying!!! they SUX! FLYING INSECTS totally SUCK to the core!!! make me so malu in sch today.. got laughed by tcher and classmates.. argh!!! (embarassed) was i very violent towards the bug? anw.. mic.. so SORRY.. i'm sincere.. i hit u while i was avoiding the stupid bug.. i so pei fu u dat u can still stay so calm.. maybe i overreacted.. but i would be worse at home.. i SCREEEEEAMMM when the bug appraoch me..

today's chem lesson was so damn TIRED... i hate it manx!! i hate it when u have almost THREE periods of chem in a day.. u shld try it.. BORED.. and den i'm tired.. and dat is enough to make me fall aslp again.. sitting on the chair for dunno how long.. den looking at the same tcher for dunno how long.. den listening to lecture summore.. dun he find it hard to teach us? he's juz mad for all i know..

and by right.. i shld be happy today.. cuz of this chem lesson which made me slp and lose all my mood.. if nt.. i basically have NO reason to be unhappy de lo.. anyway.. there's nothing to be sad abt.. it's juz me describing myself.. i got limited vocab la.. so.. i want to be =) not =( yeah.. and ppl say laugh=happy.. and u think this equation is true? ya la.. maybe to certain extent.. dun misunderstand.. cuz i'm nt talking abt u, u or u..

haha.. i'm off to do my hw le.. i stil got BIO notes to make.. hehe.. enthu... friday got TEST.. haha..

live in the world without sorrows.. smilez =)

-=+keppingupwithwadim+=-

2006-02-20T17:50:00.000+08:00

=) i'm smiling.. dunno y.. u felt a sense of satisfactory inside me.. and yay!! it brighten up my day TODAY!!! i need more fren like u who can motivates ME to do hw.. and nt those who discourage me to do so.. haha.. =9 and guess wad.. I DID NOT FALL ASLP DURING ANY LESSON TODAY!!! and dat was a MIRACLE!! summore there's ss today.. and i still made it tru the lesson!! woots!!! haha.. juz feeling high and hyper today.. and.. i'm finally awake today!! although i slpt quite late in the nite.. damn hyper la.. but too bad my frens nt dat sort of ppl.. no one to hyper wif me.. haiz..

i today good mood.. I feel GOOD!! betta dun let anything RUIN my good mood.. how i wish everyday would be like this!!! woots!!! den it'll be the true isabella.. i'm finally getting abit of me back.. hope i'll find the whole of me one day.. the cheerful me.. i'm going to walk out of the dark.. and somebody muz help me!!! overcome ALL my stress!!! I'M NOT AFRAID!!! haha =) i'm nt crazy for ur sake.. i'm really happy k? =P

andandand... SUX the hell la!!! i FLUNK my MATHS test again!!! so stupid lo.. it's such an easy chap lo.. binomial... but i hate it when i make stupid careless mistakes.. which cause me to FAIL terribly.. and the stupid thing is i lost a few marks out of 20(or 15) cuz i misread the qustions!!! stupid gal!! u stupid IDIOT!!! dun ever make dat DUMB mistake again if nt i kill u!!! u CANT flunk ur maths to careless mistakes!!! DUH!

i promise.. i'll do a plan each day.. to do wad i have to do.. complete wadeva i need to.. revise wadeva i need to revise... i'm gg to finish my ying yong wen and zuo ye by today~!! and if can i'll study my binomial again!!! I'M SCORING FULL MARKS FOR MY NXT MATHS TEST!~!! I DUN CARE!!!

smilezz =)
-=+i'mgettingmyselfback+=-

2006-02-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

hihi!! here to post.. although i know it's very late le.. yes.. and i know i shld be slping NOW! haha.. i'll do dat later..

juz wanna say wad i complete.. i got loads of things to do and i'm glad to say dat i almost finish mdm lim's hw!! yay! i finish ALL my jian bao which i owed mdm lim for million decades.. den the compo almost finish.. almost finish reading the chinese magazine..

and for maths!! muahaha... i think ho sux manx!! i went to read and understand the maths again and i finally get it!!! his eg.s are LOUSY!! i rather read it on my own.. maths rox when i know how to solve my own maths prob manx!! i FINALLY understand wad's differentiation.. YOO-HOO~! so damn happy la.. cuz i think i've done alot this weekend..

ha.. although i didnt do my revision as promised but at least i completed alot of stuff le!! yeah.. nxt week do more.. den do revision.. den i'm prepared for my o lvl le!!! i promise not to slack anymore de.. hope this promise will nv be broken.. do revision if there's no hw.. i dun wan regrets later.. i want to get straight As!!! A1 as the majority!! and 8 pts is my target!!! i'm climbing high!! dun shoot me down ok? haha.. it's fun to compete with urself.. but dun overdo it la.. it's bad de ok? =D

dunno y.. i'm in very good mood now!! izzit myself today? i wonder..

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2006-02-17T15:50:00.000+08:00

time seem to pass way TOO SLOW for me le.. cuz i lack slp? or wad? yest slpt on the bus on my way home.. den i was slping and dreaming for like very very long le.. den i expect to almost reach home or overslpt le.. but i woke up dat time.. guess where was i.. i'm still somewhere at the polyclinic there.. i tot i overslpt till the bus went for a second round le.. it seems like hours.. but the discman is juz only at track 3! argh! dunno la.. i juz feel wierd.. maybe i'm too tired le.. den accidentally fall aslp again den wake up.. same thing happen.. track 5! LOL.. this is so.. y it took so long to reach home?

eng.. phy.. chi.. math.. sianz.. i've been slping for almost all lessons today.. and i tried very hard to open my eyes and listen to wad tcher talk.. but too tired le.. i can slp wif my eyes open.. den it's the gravity which woke me up when i head suddenly drop... ho's class was damn boring la.. it's MATHS u know? and i dun understand wad he's talking.. differenciation.. cant understand.. i know he's out there to spoil my reputation of my MATHS GENIUS name.. argh!!! i muz get a maths totor le!! i cant fail anymore maths!!!

anyway.. i feel so free recently.. time pass to slow means i got more time.. more time to think think think.. think of stupid things.. so I DID MDM LIM'S HOMEWORK!!! dat's y i tell myself dat i muz do sthg for time to pass quickly.. yes.. so u find me wierd today in sch.. erm.. yep.. i want to avoid those stupid tots of mine.. o lvl is coming.. and i tell myself dat i've to score well this time.. not another disappointment le.. yeah. studying is top pirority now.. but i'm afraid dat this is juz for a while de.. i do things everytime oso like dat de.. 'san fen zhong re du'.. so enthu for a while nia.. den one week later go back to the slacking me again.. aiya.. i dunno la.. muz constantly remind me ok? i think i need to be pushed in order to stay where am i now.. I'M STARTING MY REVISION!! pls.. i realise dat i slack too much le.. there's juz slightly more than half a year left for me to study.. i need to catch up alot.. so if u see me overdo it, tell me to stop.. i dun want to numb myself with rivisions.. cuz i know i will breakdown one day..

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2006-02-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

hehex.. =) welcome to my new blog.. i wont really touch the previous blog le... so maybe gg to delete it? dunno la.. change ur link ok? so from now onwards i'll post in this blog le.. i'm bo liao.. yeah.. i wanted to do this so long ago de.. now finally got the time le..

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2005-12-11T01:40:00.000+08:00

hi! i gt nothing to do!